What have they done to you?

I know that it's not normal protocol for the child to want something for Mother's Day, but I do. I want my mother back... I want my amazing, wonderful, loving, caring, loyal mother back.

Where did she go? What have they done to her?

I have to make a confession:

I found the note earlier today.

I stumbled across it due to curiosity and boredom. I wish I hadn't. I read this note and felt a chilling wave of nausea and sorrow that I couldn't possibly describe and hopefully will never have to replicate. How long has it been this way, and why haven't you asked us to help you?

Did my episode back in March not do anything to you? This is like watching myself back a few months ago. This is almost exactly what happened to me... It's like stepping back in time. The worst image of all...

I remember my hallucination of you. My wicked hallucination of you looking up at the ceiling of my room, crying, pleading with me why. The image that scared me the most is now coming back to haunt me in the worst possible way.

What have they done to you? Everything seemed to be going so well yesterday, and now today you seem to have fallen completely apart. You're pushing away everyone who loves and cares the most for you. It's like someone has kidnapped you and took you away forever.

And I just want my mother back. I miss her so much that it hurts. I hope she never forgets that I love her, and I hope she knows that I'm so, so sorry I wasn't aware. That I wasn't close enough to her to see the signs. And I hope one day she can forgive me for my shortcomings.

I miss you, Mom. Please come back soon.