Tirade.

This song by Staind sums everything up for me, I guess.

I'm having to resort to talking to myself, again, because nobody can be bothered with me. That's alright, I guess.

I'm slowly getting sick of the people I call "friends." I do my best to be there for them, yet they can't do me the same service. Apparently it's too much effort or something else that I don't or can't see. I guess it's okay. I guess it's become okay to completely trample over people you call "friend" and I guess it's become okay to not give a damn about anyone but yourself. That's cool, I guess. I oughta take a lesson from my "friends" and do the same thing to them that they do to me.

I just needed someone to talk to. You were just too busy with yourself.

Here's something I want everyone to know: From now on, when you ask me what's wrong with me and I reply with "Nothing," you fucking deserve it. Okay? It took a lot for me to learn to trust people with my personal life, and lately no one has treated it well enough to deserve a proper response from me. Only people who deserve a response will receive one, and everyone else will get the blanket "Nothing," or "I'm fine." And you know what I have to say to all of you who are going to get pissy about it? Fucking deal with it.

You were never there for me to express how I felt. I just stuffed it down.

I'm tired of the way I've been treated ever since my last "episode." Or whatever the hell you want to call it. Everyone's been treating me differently, and it fucking sucks. Hard. I don't feel like myself anymore, thanks to everyone's newfound behavior towards me. If you aren't going to treat me like a normal human being, just fuck off, okay? Seriously. Just fuck off if you can't be bothered to treat me the way I deserve to be treated. And go die in a fire while you're at it.

Sometimes I wish karma would bite some people in the ass, and as hard as it possibly could. Some people really fucking deserve to have carelessness, thoughtlessness, selfishness, and rudeness shoved in their face, and I'm not the kind to willingly dish it out. Although I oughta learn how.

I'm tired of getting hurt over and over again, by the same people every time. I'm stupid for continuing to fall for their games, and they suck for taking advantage of a weak-hearted person.

In the end, we all lose.