An Open Letter.

To whom this may or may not concerns,

Allow me to start by apologizing for how all of this turned out. I know this isn't at all how you planned it, but life throws you curveballs sometimes, y'know?

I couldn't take it anymore. Your constant disappearances for hours (or days) at a time with no warning. Your continuous accusations that I was the one who was forgetting, when I know good and well I was not. Having to constantly turn to other people for comfort and solace because, guess what, you weren't there. I have more of a "relationship" with my best friend than I have with you, and you know why? Because he's here. You rarely are, and when you are, you're usually preoccupied with twenty other things.

I realize you have a life outside of me, and that is why I'm letting you go. Your life is far too hectic to have to put up with someone as dependent and clingy as I, and it's not fair to you to force you to be here if you can't (or can't be bothered to) be here. I want you to live your life to its fullest, and I'm just a two-ton weight attached to your ankle that keeps you from thriving. So I'm cutting you loose, setting you free, and giving you your freedom. Sky's the limit now, no?

I don't know what else to do and for my shortcomings, I apologize. I've tried everything I know to do to keep myself from getting this far, but in the end I failed. I'm lonely without you and miserable because I'm lonely... while you? Hell, you survive and thrive regardless of what I do. You don't need me and I don't know why you convince yourself otherwise. I'm not going to be the weight that holds you down or the person who holds you back from being everything you can be.

In the end, I don't think I will ever be able to accept you having such a thriving life outside of me. I need someone who thrives with me, not without. I need someone who wants to spend more time with me than you do. I need someone whose interests parallel mine so we have a point of connection. I need someone who actually will give me undivided attention. I need someone who will tell me when they're leaving, every time. I'm sorry, but I don't need this. Neither do you.

I hope that life treats you well and I hope that you succeed in anything and everything you do. Take good care of yourself and may you be prosperous.

Love always,
Dani.