Vent Entry.

Happy birthday, Nanny Vera. Though you were tragically taken away from us four years ago, today is a celebration of your life and who you were. I love you. ♥

This is more or less one of those entries I put up when I've let too much stuff get on my mind and I need to get some of it out. So here you go.

Study Schedule: (very rough outline)

Thursday:
-Finish 110 problems for Friday math exam
-Research and answer Geology quiz 7

Friday:
-Attend Microeconomics study session, 8:00 AM
-Math exam, 9:00 AM
-Research and answer Geology quiz 8 and 9
-Do 92 math study guide problems
-Research first third of Microeconomics content

Saturday:
-Research second third of Microeconomics content
-Do 92 math study guide problems
-Research and answer Geology quiz 10

Sunday: Primary focus, Microeconomics
-Research final third of Microeconomics content (organize material)
-Do 92 math study guide problems
-Research and answer Geology quiz 11

Monday: Primary focus, Geology
-Microeconomics final, 8:00 AM
-Research and answer Geology quiz 12
-Do 92 math study guide problems

Tuesday: Primary focus, Math
-Geology final, 10:30 AM
-Do last 92 math study guide problems

Wednesday:
-Math final, 8:00 AM

Atop this, Thursday (tomorrow) has me glued to my phone, and out and about. I figure I'll slack off on Thursday, as well as Saturday, and make up for the losses on Friday and Sunday. Looking at it, I almost wonder if I'm gonna work myself to death...

Presently, I'm sitting on two As (Microeconomics and Math) and two Cs (Public Speaking and Geology). As it stands, I'm going to pass all my classes without any issue. The C in Public Speaking will go up to a B when I make up the speech I missed at the beginning of the term. Geology, unfortunately, cannot be salvaged, and will, at best, be a mid-C. If I wanted, I could skate by and be fine.

But lately things have tossed me into a strange "crisis mode" in which I'm throwing myself into my work, and throwing myself into it hard. I've not had a decent night's sleep in well over a week, and don't anticipate on sleeping well until class lets out next week. In order to distract myself from things going on around me, I'm turning myself into a workaholic. I've never done this before, and am both fascinated and frightened by the behavior.

I finally know all the details of my procedure, but I'm far too distracted to writing them out now. They'll show up sometime next week, after I've had [even] more time to mull it over. The more I think about it, the more I'm slowly convincing myself that I'll be able to deal with it.

The weather today disappointed. A nasty weather system that was dumping tornadoes and hail from Texas to Alabama fizzled out as it arrived in Columbus, meaning we got a crapton of rain and four rumbles of thunder. We need the rain, I guess, but I was definitely looking forward to some excitement. The sky was an odd orangish-green this morning, which had me both excited and edgey. Orangish-green skies are typical "tornado weather" signs. The air, when I went outside this morning, was eerily still, another sign of ugly weather. But then it dissipated, and yeah.

I hate it that I'm going to have to study straight through my last two weeks in Columbus. I mean, yeah, I'm coming back in January, but I wanted desperately to get some artwork into the computer and Photoshopped. I've drawn a net total of three sketches (and written very little) from August to now, none of which made it to the computer. I tried to make time for drawing, but I never could find any. Maybe once I get out for the term I can get my creative side out of the corner. It's been severely neglected this semester, and has crawled into a dark corner and gathered dust. Although I can't say I'll have much time to be creative over the holidays, either, as I'll spend a lot of it on the road... and by the time all the traveling's done, it'll be time to start the spring term.

With any luck, on Friday the 19th, I'm doing nothing. With any luck, I'll stay in bed most of the day, sleep long and hard, and stare blankly at things just for the hell of it. With any luck, the 19th will be my one-day-vacation.

I'd say I refuse to do anything on the 19th, but knowing me and knowing my life, it won't happen.

I need to teach myself to do deeper, more restorative trances. The ones I take in the day are no longer refreshing me.

Now that my head and body feel significantly lighter, I'm going to call it a night. Hopefully, when I lay down, I'll actually sleep... not just lay there with my eyes closed until 5:50.