Excuse.

[Edit: I erased it all and started over.]

To whom it may concern,

Please excuse me from existence for the next several days, as my mental state has become horribly ill.

Both my anxieties and depression have flared, which has set me to the furthermost part of the edge as one can go without toppling over into insanity. If it isn't horrid hallucinations by night, it's disconnection and crying by day.

I have become completely useless to my companions and loved ones, and have decided it best for all involved if I pretend I fell off the planet for a couple of days. This way, I don't put anybody at risk of being around when the big collapse comes... and people don't have to put up with my nonsensical hypersensitivity.

I mean no harm to anybody, but lately I've been doing damage to people that I love, and I refuse to let myself do it anymore. It is for this reason that I plan to drop off the face of the planet for these next few days.

I'm not trying to punish anybody. Instead, I'm trying to protect people. There is something very ugly brewing and churning within this body of mine, and it's rapidly making its way to the surface. And I won't let anybody be in the path when it breaks the surface and erupts.

I'll return after the explosion, when the aftershocks are over and my stability has come back to me.

So please excuse my existence for the next few days, and I'll see you again upon my return.

-HDB